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New podcastListen to heartfelt and heart wrenching stories of real people from the early days of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community, those born into it, and those converted or influenced by the ”Teachings” in the last 50 years of ”light-washing” the truth. These are the stories you haven’t heard. The untold truths and abuses that have infused into the consciousness of the Healthy, Happy and Holy Community of KundaliniYoga globally. weblog
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Friday Apr 14, 2023
Friday Apr 14, 2023
Guru Kartar Kaur (she now goes by Rue) was born into 3HO in Mexico City in 1997 to her parents, Guru Hans Kaur Khalsa and Siri Simran Singh. A couple months after she was born, Rue and her sister, Partmatma Kaur, were brought to New Mexico by her parents, to attend the Summer Solstice where she met YB and received her spiritual name from him.
Rue’s parents were originally raised catholic but later converted to Sikhism and joined the 3HO community through her maternal grandmother, Hari Kaur Khalsa, who first became a member of Babaji’s Ashram; the first 3HO Ashram in Mexico City in 1972. Rue participated in Summer Solstice with her family for 7 years straight.
At age 11, her parents decided to send her to MPA so that she could practice and learn more about the Sikh religion. Her older sister was first sent away in 2007 and then Rue joined her a year after. They lived in India for 3 years straight and later returned back to Mexico as their parents no longer found the school appropriate and affordable. Rue has now been living in Ontario, Canada for 11 years.
She is currently in the works of opening her own art business and will soon be attending college for social service work. Through her own self-healing journey and research, she discovered she has dealt with racism and sexism as a Latina with indigenous ancestry, especially while being part of a religious cult at a young age. Art IG: @lolitsmerue
Song: Raveena - Strong
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Friday Apr 07, 2023
Friday Apr 07, 2023
Ratnavali Kaur Khalsa, (she goes by Ratna) was born in India in August 1996. At a few months of age she was adopted by Guru Nam Kaur Khalsa, of Espanola, NM and Sadhna Singh of Boulder, CO but it took over 1 year to actually get to the USA. In 1997 at 18 months old, she finally arrived to her parents: whom had adopted another child. in 1993, her brother, Guru Raj Singh, who is currently 29. She went to Miri Piri Academy in 2008 at 11 years old for 6th grade. She didn’t return in 2013 for 11th grade because of health reasons.
She currently resides in Boulder, Colorado and is a case manager for a mental health clinic. After years of experience in psychology, she found the correlation between what she went through and the “trouble teen industry’ to be very similar.
Follow her at @mpa_code_silence
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Sunday Mar 12, 2023
Sunday Mar 12, 2023
This is a follow up conversation w/ Darci Laroque to share the lasting IMPACT of childhood neglect, abandonment, and survivalist 3HO training to breed "spiritual-warriors" that she, and other children of 3HO/Kundalini Yoga, "Sikh Dharma" received.
Hint: It's NOT Healthy, Happy, or Holy. It's communal abandonment disguised as consciousness.
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From Eps. 55: Darci Larocque, was born Darci Clack in 1971. Her father joined 3HO in 1974 in the New Haven Ashram. Her mom and father were divorced and at the age of 5, she started visiting the ashram in Dorchester, MA, where her father had moved. One day in first grade catholic school, her dad and a friend in full Bana showed up in the middle of a school day and took her. Darci was taken to the Dorchester ashram and even though her mom had full custody, her father wouldn’t give her back. It was the 1970s - her mom, then 23 year old could not fight it so she joined 3HO and moved in. Darci’s dad was Deva Singh. Her mom was Ram Sarn Kaur and her name became Upma. After Children’s Camp in 1978, at 7 years old she was sent to the newly created Guardian Program in New Mexico where she stayed for years; first with one set of guardians then with the heads of the ashram. Which among other things, she had direct ranch access that only in hindsight she can now see as “special”. During this time, her mom moved to the LA ashram and YB engaged her to be married. She was supposed to go to India - but stayed behind with even more YB and ranch access. Her friends (other kids in the guardian program) left in the first group to Mussoorie, India. She ended up in LA and NM for a couple years back and forth. She was fully " out" at 13. Her dad stayed in until he died 16 years ago. Her mom left when she was 15 and she continued to work at the Golden Temple and stayed dressed in her turban while she worked. She died 7 years ago. Her whole life in 3HO was her life via her dad and friends. She didn't choose to “be cut” out. Until she was 40, she considered herself a Sikh. Only in the past two years did she finally recognize that she wasn't a Sikh. She was raised in a cult. Song : This is Me by Kesha (from The Greatest Showman)
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Books Referenced:
CPTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Peter Walker
The Tao of Fully Feeling by Peter Walker
The Language of Emotions: What Your Feelings Are Trying to Tell You by Karla McLaren
Saturday Mar 04, 2023
Saturday Mar 04, 2023
Darci Larocque, was born Darci Clack in 1971. Her father joined 3HO in 1974 in the New Haven Ashram. Her mom and father were divorced and at the age of 5, she started visiting the ashram in Dorchester, MA, where her father had moved. One day in first grade catholic school, her dad and a friend in full Bana showed up in the middle of a school day and took her.
Darci was taken to the Dorchester ashram and even though her mom had full custody, her father wouldn’t give her back. It was the 1970s - her mom, then 23 year old could not fight it so she joined 3HO and moved in.
Darci’s dad was Deva Singh. Her mom was Ram Sarn Kaur and her name became Upma.
After Children’s Camp in 1978, at 7 years old she was sent to the newly created Guardian Program in New Mexico where she stayed for years; first with one set of guardians then with the heads of the ashram. Which among other things, she had direct ranch access that only in hindsight she can now see as “special”. During this time, her mom moved to the LA ashram and YB engaged her to be married.
She was supposed to go to India - but stayed behind with even more YB and ranch access. Her friends (other kids in the guardian program) left in the first group to Mussoorie, India. She ended up in LA and NM for a couple years back and forth. She was fully " out" at 13. Her dad stayed in until he died 16 years ago. Her mom left when she was 15 and she continued to work at the Golden Temple and stayed dressed in her turban while she worked. She died 7 years ago.
Her whole life in 3HO was her life via her dad and friends. She didn't choose to “be cut” out. Until she was 40, she considered herself a Sikh. Only in the past two years did she finally recognize that she wasn't a Sikh. She was raised in a cult.
Song : This is Me by Kesha (from The Greatest Showman)
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Thursday Jan 05, 2023
Thursday Jan 05, 2023
Speaking on "1st Generation" Fragility: The impact it has on our lives in 3HO present day and historically. Listen to "Second Generation" perspective on how to listen and hear US in real time.
Resources:
Group therapy with the Trauma Healing Project
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Friday Oct 14, 2022
Friday Oct 14, 2022
Goldie found her first Kundalini class at 10 years old in 2001 and by age 12 was regularly attending KY classes at her local community college in rural Utah. She then started going to 4AM sadhana and started a 40 day practice.
At age 17, she attended her first Summer Solstice and went every year for the next 5+ years and participated in the setup crew. Gradually, Goldie sank deeper into the lifestyle and was fully immersed in it until her early-mid 20s. Eventually, she left the KY community after finding abuse allegations from previous cases online and practiced Sikhism only for a period of time before leaving it altogether.
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Sunday Oct 09, 2022
Sunday Oct 09, 2022
Pritam Hari Kaur born in Germany and grew up in Indonesia and Spain, of German post-war parents who wanted nothing better than to head out into fresh and new horizons.
After being kicked out of her house by father and step-mom at 19 years old, she felt orphaned, and eventually met Yogi Bhajan in 1981 at age 21; fully embraced the ashram lifestyle.
Comforted under YB’s tutelage and guidance at the European regional center in Hamburg. She was the European Regional Secretary from 1981 - 1987, co-organized the Annual Yoga Festival in France, the European Tantric Yoga Events and YB’s visits, as well as traveled to New Mexico every year during this time frame 81 - 87.
In 1986 he asked her if she wanted to join his staff in Espanola, NM. She declined with much sadness at the time, knowing that she would literally combust if she was there 24/7. YB introduced and arranged her marriage to Har Bhajan from South Africa and sent her to “develop” the area there in 1987.
In 1997, YB sent an African American ‘Khalsa’ to South Africa, a Sikh Dharma Minister, purportedly to support the ‘mission’. This teacher was a sex offender addict and seduced (women) in the name of “counseling” and moon center healing” people under the banner of KY, right under our noses at the ashram and on his “duty” as a minister of SD. They brought this to YB’s attention at Solstice two years later (1999), and ensured the man didn't come back; and that he was NOT sent onward to another African country, Mozambique, which YB had wanted to do.
Apparently, EPS, the ethics bureau, was created after this major and tragic scandal that never actually got recognized, reconciled, or resolved. It was said at the time that YB 'corrected' the man. However, the abusive transgressions were not conclusively dealt with via counseling and rehabilitation, being left in limbo for two decades beyond the original offenses.
At the time, the South African Ashram moved on and did the best they could to continue focusing on teaching, growing their community and sharing the Yogic lifestyle. Their son Hari Bhajan left for school in India in 1999 at the age of 10.
In 2004 when YB passed away, she went into deep grief. During this process she began taking a serious look at her own spiritual life and mental, emotional health. She noticed that despite decades of sadhana and so many tantrics and daily yoga, she was a high functioning depressive with little capacity for happiness, which made her feel flawed and ashamed.
At this time, she started very deliberately working with herself to undo her own numbness and pain. She began to feel very different, not chasing elusive goals and keying herself up in spiritual bypass as a routine way of being. Her relationship with yogi bhajan came to feel settled and at peace.
When the ‘Premka book’ came out in 2020, she already had some emotional tools for the complexity of it all, the abuses that were being revealed, despite the occasional sense of dissociation or disbelief.
She’s in a place where she still loves yoga and also holds the voices of the many persons who were harmed in her heart. There continue to be many local discussions around this and it remains an ongoing topic of transparency within our community.
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Sunday Oct 02, 2022
Sunday Oct 02, 2022
Beth joined the Los Angeles Kundalini Yoga community in 2007 while at grad school earning her MFA in production design for film and TV at the American Film Institute. She discovered Golden Bridge Yoga studio in Hollywood and soon became a regular student there, then quickly a sevadar, then a part-time front desk manager, and ultimately a full-time front desk manager, teacher, and sadhana leader.
She tookLevel 1 Teacher's Training in 2013-14 with Gurmukh and Gurushabd, and also attended Level 1 Yoga Therapy training with Guru Dharam (of England/Sweden/NY) in 2014 at Golden Bridge. She also assisted 3 other Level 1 TTs (2 at Golden Bridge Santa Monica, 1 at Golden Sol), and taught at Golden Sol studio in LA from 2014-2019. She also organized a Level 2 Yoga Therapy module with Guru Dharam at Guru Ram Das Ashram in 2015. She attended Summer Solstice in NM every year from 2013 through 2019, where she managed the Tent Setup Crew.
In 2020, she ended a 5+ year-long personal seva commitment for Gurmukh. She also no longer practices or teaches KY. Today, she has a radical and fulfilling career working as a set decorator, creative carpenter, artist, and designer in Hollywood and beyond.
IG: @beth.vandam Fb: @ElizaBeth Van Dam (https://facebook.com/elizabeth.j.van.dam)
Website: www.bethvandam.com
Song: Energy by Sampa the Great (with Nadeem Din-Gabisi) https://open.spotify.com/track/1bj5ZFpxGFP5ooQcctNVB4?si=e1453baae2204b02
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Thursday Sep 15, 2022
Thursday Sep 15, 2022
Part Two with Jules Hartley.
We go into detail of her personal story of emotional/psychological abuse from her Teacher Tej Kaur (Los Angeles; Nine Treasures), other 3HO experiences including White Tantric Yoga for both Winter and Summer Solstice, Los Angeles, as well as the highly "coveted" position and privilege of volunteering at the SSS Cabin to serve the subtle body of YB and the "WTY Facilitators" who were the live in-person representatives of the Mahan Tantric himself.
Lots of details and stories revealed in this episode.
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Jules Hartley joined 3HO in 2011, changed her name to Amrita Kaur, and actively participated as a kundalini yoga teacher, worked for WTY (Health&Humanology), Golden Bridge Yoga, Nine Treasures Yoga, and performed work exchange for KRI and 3HO, and did seva at the RaMa Institute as well as the Guru Ram Das Ashram in LA through the end of 2018.
She grew up in San Diego and Northern Virginia, and then went to college in New York City where she began her career as an actress and producer in the film & TV industry. Upon the suggestion of her manager at the time, she moved to Hollywood, where she lived for over a decade––Much of which was defined by her life in 3HO, serving the community.
She has lived back in San Diego since leaving LA in 2018, and is currently finishing up her fourth year rotations & classes of medical school. A second career in naturopathic medicine has given her a fresh perspective and the chance at a new start in my life since leaving the 3HO cult.
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Tuesday Sep 13, 2022
Tuesday Sep 13, 2022
Jules Hartley joined 3HO in 2011, changed her name to Amrita Kaur, and actively participated as a Kundalini Yoga teacher, worked for White Tantric Yoga (Health&Humanology), Golden Bridge Yoga, Nine Treasures Yoga, and performed work exchange for KRI and 3HO, and did seva (selfless service) at the RaMa Institute as well as the Guru Ram Das Ashram in LA through the end of 2018.
She grew up in San Diego and Northern Virginia, and then went to college in New York City where she began her career as an actress and producer in the film & TV industry. Upon the suggestion of her manager at the time, she moved to Hollywood, where she lived for over a decade––Much of which was defined by her life in 3HO, serving the community.
She has lived back in San Diego since leaving LA in 2018, and is currently finishing up her fourth year rotations & classes of medical school. A second career in naturopathic medicine has given her a fresh perspective and the chance at a new start in my life since leaving the 3HO cult.
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